Dieting sucks

Dieting is kind of difficult. No, dieting is extremely difficult. Counting macros and keeping track is not difficult. That's easy. I enjoy tracking and ensuring that I am eating for my goals. However, right now my goal is to lose some body fat. My calories have dropped a little bit so it makes it much more difficult to fit in some of my favorite snacks, like reese cups, chips, cookies, anything chocolate, ice cream, and pizza...just to name a few.

Yesterday, I bought this meal that was broccoli and chicken Alfredo and it had the BEST macros on it. I was super excited to get home from the grocery store and eat it. However, I very quickly learned why it had the best macros. There was like zero Alfredo sauce. I was disappointed for sure. Chris laughed at me when I hadn't even taken a bite yet and was getting out the scale to add another serving of regular Alfredo sauce. He reminded me that I have never actually dieted before. I have tracked and I have stuck to that, but I have never actually committed to a calorie deficit before in order to lose some body fat. As much as I hate to admit it, he was right. I was so quick to just add some more sauce without even trying the meal because I'm used to just fitting things in. But, when I am already in a calorie deficit, I need to be more mindful of what exactly I am fitting into my day. I tried the meal, and the verdict is: it sucked. It was plain and not at all what I wanted. But, I ate it and by the end of meal... I still thought it sucked. However, I was proud of myself for sticking to my goals. It was nutrient dense and gave me the macros I needed without going overboard. I chugged some water and then I moved on.

I woke up today and I felt good. My body felt good and leaner then I have in the past few weeks. Could I have added more Alfredo sauce to my meal yesterday? Sure. Was it necessary? No. I ended up meeting my macros perfectly yesterday which may have not happened had I added extra sauce that in reality I didn't need. Dieting doesn't have to be super difficult like I have been making it out to be. But, it is a diet. Even if I follow IIFYM, I am still in a calorie deficit. I am moving towards accepting this because as much as I love adding in my junk food, I also love reaching my goals. I guess I'll have to find a way to live with only one reese cup a day instead of more.