Hey it's okay..

... if I have an unhealthy addiction to Netflix

... if I often make light of my caffeine dependence

... to love to personalize anything you possibly can

... to tear up when people go home on The Voice

... to have bad days at the gym

...  to miss old friends

... to rewatch F.R.I.E.N.D.S more times than humanly possible

... to be scared out of your mind yet excited beyond belief for life after graduation

... to oversleep for the gym because snuggling in bed was more important

... to use your fingers to do basic math problems

.... to eat the same food over and over again

... to be proud of yourself!


We are all human and definitely far from perfect! I know I need this reminder from time to time.

December Goals

I am a little late in the month, well later than I planned to access previous goals and create new ones. But, anytime of the month is a good time to examine goals and reevaluate if necessary, so with that being said....

Last month, specific goals that I posted about were:

1. Wash my face every single night- let's just say that goal is still a work in progress. I don't know why I can't get it together enough to wash my face every night! I know I always feel so great afterwards, yet I can't make it a habit. Well, I shouldn't say "can't" because I know I can and I will! 
2. Give my all for my big presentation in my class- This was achieved! My presentation went so so well. Like, I can't believe how well it went! I received extremely positive feedback from my professor and my classmates. I was so pleased with it and I feel so accomplished after finishing the project. Now, I am truly in the home stretch to graduation!!! 
3. Hitting all of my macros- I feel that I have been successfully completing this! You are what you consistently do. This is so, so true. I still have days where I snack a little more than I should, but more often than not I am spot on with my macros. The last month I have seen a pretty substantial amount of progress, as well as definition that definitely was not there a few months ago. I have lost 4 pounds, which although weight loss wasn't necessarily the goal, it is an indiction that what I am doing is working for me and I am happy about that. My strength has not suffered, in fact, I am still hitting PR's and increasing weights. Overall, I am happy and definitely motivated to keep on trucking through!
4. Doctor visits- well let's just say this goal will get moved right into December...and probably January. Hey, I'm just being honest. 

New goals:

1. Stick with macros! Continue what I've been doing and adjust only if results stop. 
2. Continue to stay organized with my planner. Chris ordered me my first Erin Condren planner for Christmas and I am so excited to get into it!! I am ashamed that I am behind the planner game, but Lilly Pulitzer had my heart for a few years. I am ready to venture out into the planner world now. 
3. Wash my face every single night.
4. Take my vitamins everyday!! 
5. Find the perfect Christmas gifts for everyone :)
6. Continue to blog consistently.
7. Job hunt! Apply for at least 5 jobs a week.
8. Finish the blanket I am crocheting for my new nephew due to be here in February! 

Just to name a few... These are goals that can be tracked and evaluated which is why I choose to share these goals. Plus, I think goals are very important to have. Short term and long term goals can be so motivating! I know that when I have a plan and an end goal in mind, I am more likely to work harder to achieve that goal. 

How do I adult?

Graduation is 9 days away!! ahhh! I cannot contain my excitement. It has been a very, long five years getting my undergraduate degree. It really should not have taken me this long to finish, but life happens and it is what it is. Wow, two cliches in one sentence, hm.

Anyway, I am so so excited to graduate and although I didn't plan on walking across stage, I am kind of looking forward to it now. Surprisingly, I have a good bit of my family coming to the ceremony. I honestly did not expect anyone besides Chris and Carrie to come, but it turns out just about everyone is coming and it surprisingly means a lot to me. I don't even understand that I feel so happy about it because my family is so dysfunctional and I've always kind of done my own thing, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't excited at the thought of everyone being there. The only person missing will be my mommom, and after a tearful phone call with her tonight, it definitely makes it ten times worse that she won't be there.

So, how do I adult now after college? I have basically been an adult my entire life, yet finishing college makes it feel even more official. I think it's because I now have this pressure over me that I will have this degree and loan debt hanging over my head, that I feel like I HAVE to get a job doing something in my field or putting myself into that debt will feel completely pointless. (Last week, it was brought to my attention that it was, in fact, time to pick a repayment plan for my loans. If that doesn't put things in perspective then I don't know what could). Don't get me wrong, I do want to do something in my field, but I have the added pressure of feeling like if I don't find something immediately, I will feel like a failure. I honestly have a decent paying job now, and I could potentially make a living from it. However, I definitely want to continue to pursue careers in my field because it is an area that I am passionate about. I just don't really know where to start.

The issue comes in when employers want experience, but nobody wants to give you the experience. The struggle is real. I am not above taking a lower paying job if it is in my career field; however, even those opportunities are slim and want a substantial amount of experience that I just do not have. My goal right now is to just continue to search and search for career opportunities. I chose my major because it gave me the flexibility to pursue a multitude of careers and I plan to utilize that.

I firmly believe that an education is something of value, even if it put me in a good bit of debt. So, although this has been me rambling about the fear of life after graduation, I am so ready and excited for what the future has in store. My college years have come to an end, and while it was not always perfect, or fun, I learned a lot about myself and what I want to do in life. I am confident that I have figured out what I'm passionate about, now I just have to make it happen.